It is funny how you can go to school with someone all your life and not know them at all. You can grow up just down the street from each other and still only know each other by name. Life is crazy. I know people who live in other states better than I know people that I went to school with all through grade school. People that I went to school with from the age of 6 until 18 come in work occasionally. Sure I get embarrassed that I work in fast food. It is a job filled with a lot of humility. However what they don't know is that I am going to school. I am working there so I have money to better live my life. I am going to be an amazing teacher someday but until then I have to be the best fast food employee that I can be. It is not ideal. The lack of weekends is definitely taking its toll.
You can only imagine my shock when a guy I crushed on in high school came through drive through and paid a very nice compliment. As you know from a few weeks ago we were talking and having pretty decent conversations. He fell off the face of the Earth for a few weeks and I was a little bummed. I felt as though he was ignoring me for a reason that I could not comprehend.
This brings me to last night. I invited him over to watch the Red Wings game (which we won by the way, TAKE THAT SHARKS!) He attempted to come over but he had stuff to get done around his house and was unable to. It does not end here though. He drove over because he wanted to see me (for a reason that I did not understand at the time) but was only able to stay for a half hour. In that half hour we sat on the swing in my back yard, walked the distance of my backyard (should I mention I have a pretty decent size backyard?) and just talked. We visited and had a decent little time. Before he left we chatted for a few minutes by his car. He admitted that he was delaying putting off leaving. We hugged five times. I know this because he was counting which I thought was kind of cute.
I got into the house and received a text message saying that he could not even leave without messaging me. I found out last night, before I went to bed, that he had a little crush on me in high school as well. Weird right? Mind you he only went to my school for the first two years. Of course we only talked online in school because I did not have a chance to talk to him. I was not very confident in myself during grade school. I think I made so many guy friends because they always saw me as a friend. I am okay with that. I love having guy friends.
It comes with a disadvantage though. Girls see me talking to one of my friends and they assume that I like them. They assume that I want a relationship with every guy I talk to. This is not the truth. For me guys are easier to talk to than girls are. I know they are not judging me but when I talk to girls I feel like they are. Maybe this is because I am judging myself and somehow projecting it onto them. I read somewhere about something like this happening. It was probably in my psychology class. I have a few really close girl friends that I feel comfortable talking to. That is all I have to say for now. I will talk to you all later!
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