Turmoil

For those of you who do not know, I told my friends and family on a popular social networking site to give me a word and I would blog about it for ten minutes.

The first word I was given was turmoil. This is a challenging one. It is a word that I do not use often. In fact I do not use it at all. I have heard the word many times on television and what not. I looked it up in the dictionary but of course it is not copying and pasting now. I remember the word aggravation being a synonym but from what I read it was a weak synonym. This is a word that I have not had to face. I have had an easy life. It has been stressful at time. People have not always been the nicest to me. I have not always had luck when it comes to finding a job that does not depress me. I have been going to school my whole life and I still have four years until I obtain my bachelors. Then of course I have culinary school and business school so I can accomplish all of my goals. My ultimate goal? To work for myself.

As easy as my life as been it has not been perfect. I make friends too easily. It hurts me in the end. I think I am too nice because it always gets me in the end. It is my never ending urge for everyone to like me.

I am not sure how to use the word turmoil in a proper sentence. I have been trying to since I started writing this five minutes ago and have still failed. I have a general idea of what the word means but am failing to use it properly. It is a tough word for me. I guess that is because I never use it. Ever.

I see people in other countries suffering. I see poverty and children working for dollars a day. It saddens me. I appreciate how lucky I am yet I complain. Welcome to America. Now matter how lucky we are, there is always something to complain about. We are obese yet fail to do anything about it. We are not all fat. There are some people who actually take care of their bodys. I need to be motivated to be one of those people.

I am making the decision from this point forward that I am going to be a hell of a lot more cautious about every thing I take into my body. I am going to be exercising almost every day. I am not happy with my body and am going to work at it until I am. I am serious from this point on. I cannot make someone else happy if I am not happy with myself.