Stuck.

Why is it that all I can think about it writing? I am living in a dream world and I cannot snap out of reality. I spend a majority of my time day dreaming these days. Call me a space cadet but I consider myself more of an artist. I am always thinking about the next sentence I want to compose. I cannot get this memoir out of my head. It is all I think about. Reliving the past is a hard thing to do but in front of everyone I am. I am really opening up and it is kind of draining. I find it hard to express myself in reality these days. When I constantly write about what happened in the past I do not have words for the now. I do not have words for the moment. I cannot express how I am feeling exactly. It is as if I am stuck in Jeff and Terrence land with no way out. I am spinning out of control. I need to finish this memoir so I can come back to reality. I need to finish so that all my emotions are expressed and I can become human again. This is the most bizarre thing in the world. One guy at work mentioned that I was quiet one day. I was because I had nothing to say. I had been writing so much that I was out of words. I wish I was kidding but I am so serious. My mind is a few years back. I figure if I keep thinking about it it will be easier to write when it comes time to do so. Please help me get back to reality. If you notice me spacing out these next few months, bring me back. Make me focus on the now. Make me remember how to live my life without dwelling on the fact that I have a memoir to write. I have to drain all my emotions onto a piece of paper for my teacher to read. She told me this would be a challenge. I was up for it. I just did not realize how difficult it could be.