Hate.

Whoa! My last post was number 100. If I had realized such I would have attempted to make it more memorable.

Hate. This is such a strong word, yet, it is thrown around so often. It is tossed around back and forth. This is possibly one of the strongest words in the American language. To hate someone or something takes way too much energy. Why waste time hating someone when you can be civil?

There is ONE person I can say that I honestly hate. ONE person who it is not worth ever trying to like again. This is someone that I do not waste energy on because I know I will never see him again in my life. If I do see him again I think I would either want to punch him in the face or throw up. That is my ex, Jeff. I have forgiven him in my heart for all that he put me through. I pray for him on a weekly basis. Yes, I pray for my enemies. Is that so bad? Yes I hate this one person in the world but can you blame me? He put me through HELL!!! I know that relationships are two way streets and they take two people to fail. This is USUALLY the case. My fault in my relationship with Jeff was I spent too much time trying to get him to confess.

I hate some things. I hate some foods. I cannot help it, I am a picky eater. I am not sure if saying I hate Wendy's or I hate pork chops is the same thing. Does it have the same effect? Does it mean the same thing to say I hate working all weekend as it does to say I hate a person? Does it have the same effect? Work does stress me out. It stresses me out a lot. Working all weekend really gets to me. I guess it does. It does take energy. It does have a negative effect on my spirit. It also closes my periferal (sorry if that is spelt wrong) vision to the world. It causes me closed minded. I recently became a lot more open minded about the foods that I eat. I came to the realization that there are a lot of foods that I always said I hated but never really tried. I would say I hated them when I was younger because they did not look appetizing. I also did not realize how intense that one word is.