on the prowl

The boyfriend and I broke up today. I guess that is what I get for dating someone younger. I will not be able to do it anymore. I want someone that sees marriage in his future. I need someone that wants kids someday. Mind you it is not going to be for another few years because I have school to take care of. I am not ready to marry the next guy that walks into my life. I want someone that has the same values as I do. Family is, and always will be, very important to me. I thought for a moment in time that I wanted to live in New York. That moment has passed. First of all there is way way WAY too much snow in New York. Second of all I am not sure I would be able to afford it on a teacher's salary. (I am definitely not studying to be a teacher for the money.) Third of all I would miss my family and friends terribly. There may be a point in my life when I have to move. It will suck. However, with Michigan's job market, I am not 100% sure I will be able to get a job here after graduation. *crosses fingers* Here's to hoping.

I got a little side tracked. Back to the boy. We are both focused on school. We both want to be successful in our chosen professions. When the fall semester begins I am not going to see any of my friends. I plan on taking four classes each semester in order to finish up. I am sick of going to school. I just want to be done. I want my big girl job. It is my turn for a nice, steady job. I have worked in fast food long enough. Once again thanks to the wonderful economy of Michigan jobs are few and far between. Thanks Kwame! It is slowly turning around. Slowly but surely more people are getting jobs and the unemployment rate is decreasing. I am beginning to FINALLY see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I see my mom and dad happy. I see my sister and her fiance happy. I see my other sister and her husband happy. I feel alone in this big world. I know I have support from them and all of my close friends. I know that I am not alone. But I like being in a relationship. I like having that one person who I can turn to in a time of need. I like having someone to confide in. Sweet little messages that include the word babe or sweetheart, etc. make me smile. I know there is a guy out there for me. I know that I am not going to be alone my whole life. I just feel like I am done with looking. I want the guy that I am supposed to be with to come into my life soon. I am impatient. Something to work on I suppose.
Good night all!