Last night while talking to a group of friends, they encouraged me to start doing a photo of the day in my blog. I love taking pictures. In fact, my life kind of revolves around it. My friends tease me that it is the end of the world if I go out somewhere without a camera. I am going to do my best to relate my photo of the day to my blog. That is what I do. I relate things to other things. I am an English major. We are good are relating. Symbolism, themes, etc. Those are a few of my favorite things. This is the grave stone of a good friend of mine. He is missed intensely.
It is official I have been an official blogger for a whole week. In the week, I have gained 4 followers. I hope I am able to keep this up. Today was a good day but July 14th is always going to be a little tough for me. Two years ago today, a good friend of mine took his own life with drastic measures. It is still kind of sad that no one expected him to follow through with it. He talked about it from time to time but those were all times that he was off of his medication. In all honesty, he was just starting to turn around and overcome his depression. Things changed drastically within the matter of a few weeks. Death is never easy to overcome. You want to think that they are better off in heaven and that they are not suffering anymore. You want to be positive and celebrate their life instead of mourning your loss. It is not as easy as it seems. In fact, in most cases it is near to impossible. In the back of your mind you are glad that they are no longer suffering but that brief moment of selfishness always takes over. You want them here on Earth with you. You want them to not be suffering but to also be on Earth. How does that old saying go? You can't have your cake and eat it too? You know, I never completely understood that saying. I understand what it means but if you have cake, wouldn't it make logical sense that you would be eating it? Maybe it is just me and I was just over analyzing it. I do feel bad that I while I know the day my grandpa passed away, I cannot remember the exact date. Remember that big black out we had a few years ago? The one that everyone automatically assumed was terrorism? (Yes because terrorists have nothing better to do that make sure we have no power) Well, my grandpa passed away the day after that....at the first sign of light. He always was taking care of us.
Okay, that is enough of me being all depressing and what not. A friend and I went to his grave this afternoon. Unfortunately, due to construction, we had to walk almost a mile to get there and almost a mile to get back to my car. You could say we are dedicated. This blog is dedicated to all my loved ones that have passed away.
It was do worth it though. I am glad I went with you.
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