Great. Just great.

Why does life have to be so complicated? As soon as I think I get it figured out it seems to blow up in my face.
I was living the perfect drama free life. I was having fun with my friends. I was hanging out and getting along with everyone. I reconnected with a guy friend of mine with whom I stopped talking to for awhile. We stopped talking because there was some drama that needed to be sorted out. And of course that blew up on my face.
This guy friend has a little bit of history with a girlfriend of mine. They used to hang out and what not. Well it ended badly and she does not want anything to do with him. He thought that because it was so long since everything happened that they were cool again. Who knew that she could carry such a grudge?
Well she told me yesterday that she does not have time in her life for people who are disloyal and weak. She said I am disloyal because I wanted to be friends with her AND him. I wanted both of them in my lives. I was not hiding it from her. It never came up in conversation. I did not think it was that big of a deal. Okay so their relationship did not work out. It is not like I was trying to hurt her. I did not decide to be friends with him out of spite. I honestly wanted to be friends with both of them.
I understand where she is coming from kind of. He has not always been the nicest to me. He only hangs out with me when it is good for him. He is terrible at answering his phone. But my relationship with him should NOT affect my relationship with her. They are separate. We are not all in a relationship together. I have been thinking about this A LOT. Yeah I am not going to be messaging him. I am going to leave him alone and hope that he returns. They say that if you let something go and it comes back it is yours. If we are meant to be friends then he will come back around on his own time.
It breaks my heart a little that after all of this I lost two friends. I knew that eventually I would have to let him go. I knew that I was going to have to get over that fact that we would never work. Maybe talking to her was just the wake up call that I needed. I can only hope and pray that SHE comes back around. I can only hope that she forgives me I guess for being a terrible friend. Well at least she thinks I am a terrible friend.
This really sucks.