Welcome to my blog!

I am an English major. They say practice makes perfect so here I am practicing my writing in hopes that some day I will be perfect.
This is the world according to me.
I hope you enjoy my insight as much as I enjoy writing it.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Smart Phones

I admit. I have one. I also admit that I rely on it too much. It does everything for me. I check my social networking site. I keep an eye on emails. I track my hours at work. I watch the calories in every food that I eat. It is not neccesarily a good thing.

When my phone breaks I do not know what to do with myself. I only have a few phone numbers memorized. I do not need to know them when I can easily store them in my phone with the push of a few buttons. I do not dial and numbers. With a press of a few buttons I can pull up any number that I need.

There are phone numbers in there that I never asked for. My phone is linked up with the popular social networking site. Anyone who left their numbers for public knowledge gave permission for me to have their number for any particular reason.

What did we do before computers? How did I get in touch with people before text messaging? I rarely call people. I do not like calling people. I keep conversations as short as possible when I need to make a call. My friends laugh when I will call, ask a question and then hang up without a good bye. It is not to be rude. It may come off as rude. However I say what I need to say then move on with my day.

I do not leave voicemails, with the exception for my mom and dad. I hate checking voicemail. This probably sounds lazy but it is too much work. A lot of my friends will send a text message right after they call if I do not answer. I do the same thing. It is easier. It is less work to say what needs to be said. Also, I am not sure about other phone companies, but checking voicemail messages actually costs minutes. While it should be free to retrieve a message that is left on my phone it isn't.

With this being said technology is making us lazy. We do not even have to go to the store to rent movies. It can be done with the click of a mouse or even with a few pushes on the buttons of the remote. Ordering pizza is the same way. We do not even have to leave our houses to order. We do not have to pick up the phone. A lot of places allow for pizza to be ordered over the internet. It is crazy!

Technology is good. Scientists have come a long way with the latest technologies. There is always something new coming out. It is hard to keep up. My laptop is only four years old but is already considered ancient. It has been ancient for two years now. I cannot keep up with that latest fads but I can always try.

It is not good though. A lot of Americans are obese or overweight. We wonder why. How could it be that we have all gained so much weight! It could not possibly have anything to do with how easy it is to sit home and order three extra large pizzas with extra cheese and movies to last all night. The most exercise some people do is walking from the chair into the bathroom.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Rent

The tale is not exactly something I am able to relate to. I have never lived in New York. I have never done drugs. I have never had a AIDS or any STDs. I have never been poor to the point of being evicted.

However it is one of my favorite movies of all time. It gives me hope. First of all it shows that no matter how life can be, it can always get worse. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. It shows that the really bad days make the good days that much better.

I cherish every good day that I have. Everyone has a bad day now and then. It is life. With every death we have to suffer, we get that much stronger.

The main theme of Rent is "No day but today." Live life in the present. Do not dwell on the past or stress about the future. Live life as it comes. This seems to be a good philosophy to live by. I try to live by it but of course it does not always work. I always want to think ahead of time in order to make sure my life is on the right track.

I try not to dwell on the past. What good is it? I write about my past to reflect. I am a much stronger person now that I was in high school. I am much more confident in myself and it shows. I may be shy when I am surrounded by unfamiliar people. I assess every new group to determine how I am going to fit in.

I adapt to my surroundings. I am sort of a social chameleon. I have the ability to relate to pratically any group of people. This may sound like I am bragging. It may even seem as though I am stretching the truth. This is not the case.

I would be able to adapt to the life of the people in the movie Rent. I envy them. They moved to New York with dreams and desires. They live their lives in the moment and do not worry about the future. There is no day but today. Their lives are tough. They suffer and do not have time for food all the time. In order to keep warm, one of the apartments has a garbage can that is used as a faux fire.

This is a world that I have never experienced. It is a world that I dream about visiting and adapting to. Yes, I dream of adapting to living in a life of limited food, heat, etc. It would make me even more appreciative of how fortunate I am to know that I always have a home and bed to return to after a long day.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Godmothers

I have had two in my life. My Aunt Denni was the godmother who stood by my side as my parents baptized me into the church. Next to her stood Uncle Tim who I guess would be my Godfather. I am not sure if it really works that way but I think it does. How cool of a title is that?

When I was about four years old Aunt Denni passed away from breast cancer. The technology and medicine we have now is so much far advanced than what we had back then. I do not remember her very well because I was very little when she passed. I know she was a bigger lady. She always had a smile on her face, even when she was in her wheelchair because she was going through chemo therapy.

My Uncle Tim remarried a few years later so technically he is not my Uncle anymore. He is only by marriage. Although because he is my cousin Sandy's dad I will probably always call him Uncle. It only makes sense, you know? There was a lot of drama involving the lady he remarried. Unfortunately, growing up, we were unable to see Sandy as much as I would have liked.

Now that we are older I realize how much Sandy and I have in common. It makes me happy. We always have a good time when we see each other. While I do not know her as well as I should I like to think I know her pretty well. We have a lot of similar interests and think very similarily. Crazy right?

Now to my second Godmother. She is the one who gave me this topic. She is my Aunt Bobbi. She is a very nice woman who will do anything for anyone. I love having her in my life. She battled with breast cancer a few years ago and came out a survivor. That is partly because of all the new medicine and what now.

I have an amazing family and would not want to replace them ever! We are loud, obnoxious at times, but we have fun. We are there for each other when someone is down. We watch each others backs. We praise each other. Even if someone is in a rough spot we are there for them. There is drama, like in any other family but we get through it.

The time I spend with my aunts and grandma and cousins are the best times I have. We do not need to go anywhere or do anything. We talk, laugh, faurt, burp, etc. We are comfortable around each other because we love each other. Everyone needs to have a family as loving as the one that I have. Whether it is family that you pick due to unfortunate circumstances or the family that you are born into, everyone deserves to have a place to call home. A place where you know your family will be when you need them!

Friday, May 20, 2011

Turmoil

For those of you who do not know, I told my friends and family on a popular social networking site to give me a word and I would blog about it for ten minutes.

The first word I was given was turmoil. This is a challenging one. It is a word that I do not use often. In fact I do not use it at all. I have heard the word many times on television and what not. I looked it up in the dictionary but of course it is not copying and pasting now. I remember the word aggravation being a synonym but from what I read it was a weak synonym. This is a word that I have not had to face. I have had an easy life. It has been stressful at time. People have not always been the nicest to me. I have not always had luck when it comes to finding a job that does not depress me. I have been going to school my whole life and I still have four years until I obtain my bachelors. Then of course I have culinary school and business school so I can accomplish all of my goals. My ultimate goal? To work for myself.

As easy as my life as been it has not been perfect. I make friends too easily. It hurts me in the end. I think I am too nice because it always gets me in the end. It is my never ending urge for everyone to like me.

I am not sure how to use the word turmoil in a proper sentence. I have been trying to since I started writing this five minutes ago and have still failed. I have a general idea of what the word means but am failing to use it properly. It is a tough word for me. I guess that is because I never use it. Ever.

I see people in other countries suffering. I see poverty and children working for dollars a day. It saddens me. I appreciate how lucky I am yet I complain. Welcome to America. Now matter how lucky we are, there is always something to complain about. We are obese yet fail to do anything about it. We are not all fat. There are some people who actually take care of their bodys. I need to be motivated to be one of those people.

I am making the decision from this point forward that I am going to be a hell of a lot more cautious about every thing I take into my body. I am going to be exercising almost every day. I am not happy with my body and am going to work at it until I am. I am serious from this point on. I cannot make someone else happy if I am not happy with myself.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Friendships are not supposed to be work!

Friendship. It seems like a simple concept. You find someone that you get along with and you have a good time. It should not be hard work to maintain a friendship. Sure you spend time with each other and enjoy each others company. Of course I will do anything in my power to help my friends. I have the best friends in the world and I cannot say that enough to make it more true.

I am done with drama. My group of friends just have fun and we all get along. Okay so sometimes someone may get offended. Spending too much time together allows for that. It cannot be all hunky dory all of the time. That is life, you know?

In the same sense we all get along and have a good time. We laugh. We communicate. We are there for each other when needed.

In short I do not do well with high maintenance. (I am sorry if that is spelt wrong. That is one word I always have a hard time with.) If anyone upsets me, I get rid of them. They are deleted in a sense. I may still have to see the person if we are with mutual friends but I am not going set specific time to the side just for said person.

Okay I guess I am rambling.

Relationships are work. Being with one person. Loving someone. That is work. It is hard being involved with someone and caring for someone. It is supposed to be that way. If it was easy, being in love would just not be much fun.

Friendships are not supposed to be work. I choose who my friends are. I choose who I spend my free time with. I enjoy every spare minute that life gives me. Lately, my best friend is myself. I spend more time alone than I do with company. After working five days a week I like to be alone. I also feel as though I am out of the loop because I do not see my gang as often as I would like. I do not know what is going on with anyone. Everyone knows what is going on with me curteosy of facebook and this here blog.

Well that is all my ranting for now. I will talk to you later!

Thursday, May 12, 2011

gr.

My head is cloudy. Why can I not figure out this whole successful relationship thing? It seems like I always do it wrong. It know that it is hard. I know that it takes a lot of work. I feel like I keep failing and I do not understand why. I have had successful relationships in the past. Of course eventually they failed because it was not working out anymore.
This boy is really making me go crazy.
I really like him. I am not even kidding.
It annoys me when people do not respond to my text messages or ignore my calls.
I do not want to play games.
I need a genuine nice guy. He does not have to be someone who wants to be with me 24/7 at this point. Simply replying to messages or answering my calls or even texting me just because he is thinking of me would suffice.
I do not want to feel like I am an annoyance. I hate being ignored.
I do not know what to think anymore.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Yes I have guy friends. No I do not have a crush on all of them.

It is funny how you can go to school with someone all your life and not know them at all. You can grow up just down the street from each other and still only know each other by name. Life is crazy. I know people who live in other states better than I know people that I went to school with all through grade school. People that I went to school with from the age of 6 until 18 come in work occasionally. Sure I get embarrassed that I work in fast food. It is a job filled with a lot of humility. However what they don't know is that I am going to school. I am working there so I have money to better live my life. I am going to be an amazing teacher someday but until then I have to be the best fast food employee that I can be. It is not ideal. The lack of weekends is definitely taking its toll.
You can only imagine my shock when a guy I crushed on in high school came through drive through and paid a very nice compliment. As you know from a few weeks ago we were talking and having pretty decent conversations. He fell off the face of the Earth for a few weeks and I was a little bummed. I felt as though he was ignoring me for a reason that I could not comprehend.
This brings me to last night. I invited him over to watch the Red Wings game (which we won by the way, TAKE THAT SHARKS!) He attempted to come over but he had stuff to get done around his house and was unable to. It does not end here though. He drove over because he wanted to see me (for a reason that I did not understand at the time) but was only able to stay for a half hour. In that half hour we sat on the swing in my back yard, walked the distance of my backyard (should I mention I have a pretty decent size backyard?) and just talked. We visited and had a decent little time. Before he left we chatted for a few minutes by his car. He admitted that he was delaying putting off leaving. We hugged five times. I know this because he was counting which I thought was kind of cute.
I got into the house and received a text message saying that he could not even leave without messaging me. I found out last night, before I went to bed, that he had a little crush on me in high school as well. Weird right? Mind you he only went to my school for the first two years. Of course we only talked online in school because I did not have a chance to talk to him. I was not very confident in myself during grade school. I think I made so many guy friends because they always saw me as a friend. I am okay with that. I love having guy friends.
It comes with a disadvantage though. Girls see me talking to one of my friends and they assume that I like them. They assume that I want a relationship with every guy I talk to. This is not the truth. For me guys are easier to talk to than girls are. I know they are not judging me but when I talk to girls I feel like they are. Maybe this is because I am judging myself and somehow projecting it onto them. I read somewhere about something like this happening. It was probably in my psychology class. I have a few really close girl friends that I feel comfortable talking to. That is all I have to say for now. I will talk to you all later!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Keep me around, you will not regret it.

As my luck goes I attempted to post a blog from my phone earlier because my internet was down. I thought I posted it but it is no where to be find in cyberland. Weird right? I vaguely remember what I wrote about. I am going to try this again.
This is a fair warning: This blog is going to make me seem very conceited. I am okay with that, I hope you all are.
I am a good person to have around in anyone's life. This is why:
1. I am very loyal to my friends and family. I will do anything for them. I have done just about everything for them.
2. I like surprising people. I like for people that I care about to know that I am thinking about them at random times of the day. This includes leaving ridicously (sorry if that is spelt wrong) long voicemails.
3. I love birthdays. I love the idea of being able to have that one day that is all about you. I make a big deal out of EVERYONE'S birthday. I will make cupcakes for people I work with. I will buy cards and presents. I will spend as much money as I can on a person just because it is their special day. If I have a good birthday why shouldn't everyone else? It really bums me out when people say their birthday is not all that great.
4. I am genuinly nice. I am not fake. I am nice to everyone I see. This is partly because you never know if I am going to see the person again. One customer could be my key to success in life. Does that make sense?
5. I am passionate about education. I love obtaining knowledge. If anyone wants to share any random piece of information with me I will listen. I am a nerd but I embrace it.
6. I am a good listener. I may not give the best advice but I will listen anytime someone needs to talk.
7. Last but not least I am fun. I am spontaneous. I will try anything once. I love having a good time. I love being around my family and close friends.

Over all the small moments in life can either make or break my day. I can have a terrible day and one simple text message will make my day do a 180. On the opposite spectrum I can have the best day in the world but one thing going wrong will ruin it. I am a simple girl. I live life to the fullest. I find pleasure in all the smallest things that I come in contact with.
Good night all.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

My mind is a jukebox.

My head is like my own person jukebox. I have 672 songs on my IPOD but I have about a million songs in my head.
There are so many days when I will hear just a single word and a song will pop in my head. Then, as I am so lucky, the song will be stuck in my head like an unwanted visitor coming to visit then staying for a few months and not leaving. I do not mind. It is nice to always have something to listen to. I enjoy having a jukebox in my head that plays on random 24/7.
The other day at work I was thinking of the song "High Hopes" by Frank Sinatra. I have no idea where the song came from but I could not help but sing along. No one at work knew the song I was thinking of and they looked at me like I was crazy. It is such an old song. I was not surprised at all they had not heard of it.
The two managers I was working with are my age and I guess do not listen to older music. They do not have as much of an appreciation for it as I do. I am not saying this to sound rude. It is simply the truth. They enjoy music but are blinded by music produced in their lifetime. If they are familiar with old songs it is the classics that everyone knows.
I was driving along the other day jamming to "Coronation March" from Star Wars. I felt empowered. I felt like my life should have been a movie at that point. Well this was quite random. All I wanted to do was to get my brain juices going so I am able to complete my essay that is due in two days.