The Royal Wedding

I went bacj and forth on what to write about today but I decided to tune into current events. We all heard about it on the news. I heard that 2 billion people tuned into it! How many people are there even living on the planet? Let me Google that. I look everything up on Google. Who needs encyclopedias and books when all the information you need in the world is on a fantastic site such as Google? (There is sarcasm involved because I love books and I HATE Ebooks but that is a rant for another post at a later date.) Of course I cannot gurantee any validity in any sources on Google but as of 2006 (According to answerbag.com) 6.8 billion people were living on earth. So if 2 billion were watching the wedding that is about 1/3 of the entire population of the world! That is insane. I was sleeping. I do not know about you.

To be honest I am a little upset that Prince William is off the market. I wanted to marry him. Kate sucks. I hate her. :) My new plan is to move to England ASAP. I need to break up Prince Harry and his girlfriend so that I can marry him. Okay okay we all know it will never happen but a girl can dream.

I want to be a princess. I have watched way too many Disney movies not to want to be a princess. Not to mention all of the cheesey romance movies I have watched in my day that (as predictable as they are) are addicting. I think that is the hopeless romantic in me coming out. Every relationship that I get into I try to turn it into marriage down the line. I am not getting any younger here. I am ready to find someone, who in a few years, wants to settle down and have a family. If I cannot be a true princess, I want someone who will treat me like I am. My mom and dad have been married for almost 31 years. They are still happy. Of course they fight from time to time but if they didn't you would know it was not a good marriage. Being in a relationship is not easy. It takes a lot of work.

In the fall I will be going to school full time and working part time. If I find someone worth it, I will date. It will have to be someone that I do not see a lot but the free time I do have would be spent with said male.

I do not want you all to think that I am completley bitter about William and Kate getting married. I wish them all the best luck in the world. I hope they are happy together. Now to off to find MY prince.
Later gators~

Coloring will never be overrated.

Coloring is amazing. You can make whatever you want with whatever color you want! You can be free and let your imagination go wild. It does not matter if Belle's dress is pink when it is actually golden yellow. If you want her to wear a pink dress then so be it. Color how ever you want because there are not many opportunites as an adult where you can do whatever you want and however you want to do it. You have to go to school (unless you want to work in a low income job). You have to work unless you have another way to pay the bills. You have to take care of whatever responsibilites you bring into the world. If you have children you may not always be able to go out and have fun. If you have a pet their needs come first as well. It is nice to have an escape from the adult world. It may sound immature but I am okay with it. I am very responsible. I go to school. I work. I take care of my business. If someone or something tries to take me down I keep my head up and keep on moving. If a guy breaks my heart, I grief for a moment then move on with my life. I am not getting any younger here. I do not have time to mourn over a failed relationship. I just keep on moving. Of course I get sad from time to time but I get over it. I am strong. If I was not able to color out of the lines sometimes what would I have to look forward to? Someone has to be the one to think outside the box. The world needs some innovative souls that are not afraid to be different. We make it an interesting place to be. I cannot be a cookie cutter of a girl. I cannot live in what I call the "Lakeside houses." These are houses that are all built the same one after another in a kind of ritzy neighborhood. They are nice, don't get me wrong, but I prefer a house that is unique to my taste. In all honesty I would love to build a house of my own so that I know it has all the requirements that I need in a house. Then again all I require is a big kitchen, a library, a sun room, a bathroom with a working bath (you have no idea how much you miss them when you do not have one), and a BIG bedroom with a walk in closet. Of course the basics would be there but those rooms are what I would be focusing on. Okay now I am going into dream land but whatevs. My point is without going into my own land of imagination and creativity I am not the me that everyone knows and loves. I am innovative. I am creative. I have a crazy imagination that never sleeps. I overthink. I overanalyze. But they all love me!
Good night.

Admit it: Flirting is fun.

There was this guy in high school that I had a small crush on. I did not know him very well because he only went to my school for one or two years. He then transferred over to a school in a neighboring city. I would talk to him here or there over the computer but it was never anything major. To make the long story short we have reconnected. He came through my drive thru at work a few weeks ago and we started talking. I added him on facebook and we have been talking a lot through text messaging since then. I have to admit I love flirting. I think sometimes I flirt too much? If I do I am over it. Flirting is fun. It makes me feel good about myself especially when the flirting is reciprocated. This guy is very sweet and I truly enjoy talking to him. We seem to want the same things out of life. We are both going to school to better our lives. We are both working and (unfortunately) both living with our parents. We are both people pleasers which may be a good or bad thing we will see. Disadvantage: He is not Christian. This may or may not be a deal breaker. Only time can tell. Well I need to get to working on my paper. I have a page (ish) left to write. Oh the joys of being an over achiever and completing a paper over a week before it is due.

Oh motivation, where did you go?

Motivation. Obesession. I wish the two would meet. I am obsessing about this paper that I am writing on The Great Gatsby. I am writing about the American Dream and how Gatsby interprets it. I have seven books to read and study harder until I can fully commit to this paper. It is tough but I am determined to bust it out in the next two days. My intention is to be able to have my teacher proofread it sometime next week so I am able to get a good grade on it. I am obsessing. I obsess over every paper that I write. If I did not obsess I would not have papers turn out as well as they do. I love writing papers. More than that I love writing amazing papers and receiving good grades on them. Yet I am having trouble finding motivation and inspiration. I think the warm weather is getting to me as it always does. Stupid nice weather. I also think that I am so anxious to be out of Macomb. I am eager to start at Wayne State and obtain my bachelors. It has taken me a long time to get to this point but that is because I am very indecisive. Mark my word, I am going to focus completely on this stupid paper the next few days.

It is Easter. A few days ago was Good Friday. It makes me smile inside when the weather follows along with these two days as it I see it in my head. I see Good Friday as rainy and gloomy. This (as you all know I am sure) was the day that Jesus died on the cross to forgive our sins. If it were a movie of course there would be rain and eerie, slow music that gives you the shivers. Easter was the day that Jesus rises from the dead and ascends into Heaven. Naturally in my head I see Easter as nice weather. It is the weather that allowed me to go outside and draw with chalk on the patio with my nephew. He even stayed laying on the ground long enough for me to trace him almost completely. Our patio looked a little bit like a crime scene. He even drew blood coming from the body. Then again I do not think that was intentional being that he is not even two yet. My mom joked that we needed detectives from The First 48 to come.

I get these preset notions in my head about how the weather should be during certain days of the year. I prefer blue skies and 60 degree weather on April 8th because that is my birthday. In Michigan, 60 degrees is shorts and flip flop weather. You can almost bust out the tank tops at that point. I go shoeless as early as possible because our weather changes so rapidly. Being that I have a spring birthday, the weather is always unpredictable. We had snow just last week or the week before. People complained about it. You would think that, living in Michigan, people would be used to it by now right? Even if they are they never fail to complain about snow.

On Christmas I prefer snow. The idea of a white Christmas is ideal to me. I am not a huge fan of snow but on Christmas and on Christmas eve it is nice to look out and see the ground covered in snow. It does not matter if I get snowed in because these are days that I stay at home and relax with the family. As long as I have a nice cup of hot chocolate I am content. If it melts away the next day I have no complaints though I do like sledding. I have not gone in a long time but I always thought it was a good time. Maybe I should buy a new sled this year (since my dad threw ours out when we moved) and hit some hills.

Well, I am going to check on my favorite eagles in Decorah, Iowa now.
Good night all.
Happy Easter.
He is Risen!!!!!

on the prowl

The boyfriend and I broke up today. I guess that is what I get for dating someone younger. I will not be able to do it anymore. I want someone that sees marriage in his future. I need someone that wants kids someday. Mind you it is not going to be for another few years because I have school to take care of. I am not ready to marry the next guy that walks into my life. I want someone that has the same values as I do. Family is, and always will be, very important to me. I thought for a moment in time that I wanted to live in New York. That moment has passed. First of all there is way way WAY too much snow in New York. Second of all I am not sure I would be able to afford it on a teacher's salary. (I am definitely not studying to be a teacher for the money.) Third of all I would miss my family and friends terribly. There may be a point in my life when I have to move. It will suck. However, with Michigan's job market, I am not 100% sure I will be able to get a job here after graduation. *crosses fingers* Here's to hoping.

I got a little side tracked. Back to the boy. We are both focused on school. We both want to be successful in our chosen professions. When the fall semester begins I am not going to see any of my friends. I plan on taking four classes each semester in order to finish up. I am sick of going to school. I just want to be done. I want my big girl job. It is my turn for a nice, steady job. I have worked in fast food long enough. Once again thanks to the wonderful economy of Michigan jobs are few and far between. Thanks Kwame! It is slowly turning around. Slowly but surely more people are getting jobs and the unemployment rate is decreasing. I am beginning to FINALLY see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I see my mom and dad happy. I see my sister and her fiance happy. I see my other sister and her husband happy. I feel alone in this big world. I know I have support from them and all of my close friends. I know that I am not alone. But I like being in a relationship. I like having that one person who I can turn to in a time of need. I like having someone to confide in. Sweet little messages that include the word babe or sweetheart, etc. make me smile. I know there is a guy out there for me. I know that I am not going to be alone my whole life. I just feel like I am done with looking. I want the guy that I am supposed to be with to come into my life soon. I am impatient. Something to work on I suppose.
Good night all!

sleepy I am

Sleeping I should be. Writing I am. Thinking I am. Non-stop. Thoughts running in circles through my head. So much to do in my life time. First I have to finish school. Work. School. Work. School. It is never ending. You have to have experience to get a job. You need a job to get experience. It is a vicious circle that never ends. GAH! I just need that one person to give me a chance. One company that thinks I am worth a shot so that I am able to get the experience I desire oh so much. Help me please. I cannot stand to work for the obesity society much longer. It is killing whatever brain cells I have left to spare. It is what it is I guess. Until I find something better I will continue to do what I do best: Make skinny people fat and fat people fatter. It is how we do in the fast food world.

Oh Gatsby please inspire me.

It is essay time. I have to write a 6-8 page paper and it is due in a few weeks. I have plently of time but I wanted to start working on it. Realistically speaking I am not going to finish it today. I am very stuck on it. I am surrounded by eight books (one of which is The Great Gatsby which I am writing about). We have to have at least three outside sources. I have seven. I think I will be fine but like I said I am stuck. Of course I want to to the best job I can do on this essay. What kind of English major would I be if I just half assed an essay that is worth so much of my grade? I admit I B.S. a lot of my papers. I can get away with it. I can B.S. a paper and still manage to pull a B+ or and A-. I prefer the later of the two. If I end up with anything lower than an A in this class I am not going to be happy. I did get an A on the midterm with no effort at all. I assume that I will also get an A on the final. I just turned in a paper on "One flew over the cuckoo's nest" on Friday and I am hoping for a good grade on that one as well. We will see. That was the last short paper that we have to write. The one I am writing now is the last paper that I have to write for the class. We only have three sessions left I believe? It is four weeks but we do not have class on Good Friday for obvious reasons. Until I get out of this block I am going to watch the Decorah Eagles. Have you seen them? It is simply amazing. I love watching them. It truly amuses me. ^_^

What is coming of our society?

We are becoming so lazy. People wonder why Americans are so overweight. How is it that a majority of our citizens are overweight when so many people belong to the gyms? There a numerous types of diets that people can follow. Weight Watchers, NutriSystem, Atkins, etc. Weight Watchers does work. I used it myself a few years back. I get bored after awhile with having to count points meal after meal, day after day, week after week, month after month. I need to though. I need to monitor every little thing that enters my body. I need to be conscience of everything I consume. It is a little annoying but it is my reality. Also, we barely have to get up to do anything. We can drive everywhere. Sometimes we do not even have to drive to do the things we need to get done. You can order pizza by simply powering up the computer and clicking the mouse a few times. It can be delivered so all you have to do is have the money ready and open the door for the delivery guy or girl. With technology progressing as fast as it is, we may not even have to do that much in a certain amount of years. Can you imagine pizza delivery guys being replaced with machines? It sounds a little bit off but it could happen. Remember that movie Wally? It is not one of my favorites because, for a cartoon, it got a little too political. However it makes a very good point. At the end of the movie you see bigger people sitting in these chairs and everything in their lives is handled by a remote control. As nice as it would be I am not looking forward to that day. I like going on walks. I like riding my bike. If I order pizza I am going to go pick it up. If (and yes it is a long shot) delivery guys and fast food workers are replaced by machines there go a lot of job opportunites out the window. I have worked in fast food for almost six years. I hate it. It is getting me through college though. It is a job and in this dwindling economy I cannot complain.

I am an ass.

I feel like such a failure when I let people down. My never ending need to please people hurts me. When I know I cannot please someone I get upset. If I know I let someone down I get angry with myself. It is tiring. I know I cannot please everyone but for some reason I still try. I cannot help but want everyone to like me. It is nagging to me if I think someone does not like me. It is a real annoying trait that I fight daily. My mom is upset with me right now. I know she will get over it but now I am upset. I locked my keys in my car and because my AAA card was IN the car I was not able to call them to unlock it for me. My mom, being the nice and amazing woman that she is, came up to the gym (where I locked myself out) and gave me a key. When I got home I thanked her and she said that I was better off not talking to her. I feel like such an ass. I cannot stand when she especially is mad at me. She is supposed to take me shopping for my birthday tomorrow and I almost feel like now that I do not deserve it. This sucks.

Education...Fail.

Education. Not exactly a smart career choice. But, I feel it in my heart that it is the career choice that is right for me. I may be conceited (and I do not care) but I am going to be an amazing teacher someday. I love kids. I love being around them. I can learn as much from them as they can learn from me. I cannot wait to be in a classroom teaching. I have a long road ahead of me until I am at that stage. I have four years at the University before I can be in a classroom. I did some job shadowing a few weeks ago and am geeked about being able to do this. It is my passion. It is my future. I tried to fight it but God made sure I knew that that was what he put me on this planet for. Teaching is why I am alive. I was born to teach. The boy was put on this Earth to be an engineer. He told me one day that I look like a teacher. I laughed a little. I was not sure how to take that. What does a teacher look like? Certainly I do not wear ugly sweaters with big brimmed glasses. I have yet to put a finger on what a teacher looks like. If you know, please inform me. So why is it not a smart move? Look around. Read the news. They are trying to rid of unions in Wisconsin. If this happens, it is only time before the unions diminish in Michigan. Teachers need unions. Without unions there is no job stability. Also, the expectations put on teachers is way to high. They are expected to be mentors, educators, and babysitters all rolled up into one. There was a situation in my mom's school where a student was not getting along with a teacher. When there was a meeting with the principal, the mother got mad and stormed out of the building. There were obscenities involved and she swore that the student would not be returning. I am not sure but I do not think the student has returned. I could be wrong. It is crazy right? I am probably biased but for all teachers have to go through they are highly under paid. They get as much schooling as lawyers. I am not even kidding. In Michigan they need so many credits towards their masters. By the time the need is satisfied it is stupid to not finish because they are that close to being done with it. *sigh* Oh this life as an educator is going to be an interesting one.